nostalgiarama

prompted by hilary's blog yesterday about WVU football and the ensuing conversation i had with michael about my college experience, i've been college-nostalgic today. it could be the slightly cooler temperature, the bent that the light seems to take, crisper, making you think that fall could be just around the corner.

it was, after all, seven years ago (seven years ago) this month that i started college at depauw.

i was wasting time on myspace, one of my favorite pastimes on slow work days, looking to see who from depauw/at depauw belongs to myspace. as i was scrolling through pictures, i saw the inevitable frat-boy-standing-with-arms-around-frat-brothers guy. seeing that he was wearing an SAE sweatshirt, i clicked on his profile.

when i was at depauw i was one of a handful of out queer people. i'd heard stories about the SAE house, the way some of their members had assaulted queer people, the atrocities against us they were blamed for. i avoided walking past the house; in four years i never went inside it.

today, looking at these frat boys standing together in their picture, smiling, they looked like little boys. these are the people i was so afraid of? i thought. the people i used to fear look like kids to me now.

kids whose ass i could totally kick.