venting.

well, i nearly made it an entire week without getting into a fight with my newly-ultraconservative mother about the national review, which is her new bible. she's turned off npr (too liberal), unsubscribed to u.s. news and world report (apparently too liberal), and turned on ponca city's country station (which, she screamed at me three days ago, is the only thing on the radio she likes to listen to).

against my better judgment, i picked up her newest national review and flipped through it, looking for any anti-gay rhetoric. i mean, hello, there has to be something in some article. i didn't have to flip very far before i came across an article talking about how awful it is that america's universities are being overtaken by--get this--the feminist agenda. it says something like, "these schools happily open their arms to gay and lesbian centers but refuse to let the army recruit on campus." uh, yeah. that's a bad thing? i wasn't going to say anything until i got to a bit where it actually says, and i quote, "MEN ARE BETTER AT MATH." men are better at math. my mother is paying to read something that's telling her that her gender is stupid. OHMYGODOHMYGOD.

my mother knew instantly what i was freaking out about and started in on a tirade about how she "keeps mer mouth shut" about all of these things (presumably how i'm a big east-coast cocksucking faggot) and how all of the policies i'm "berating are what have given me the opportunity to live however the spirit moves me, but she can't say that because i might get offended by the use of the word spirit." mind you, i've just sung two services--sick as a dog--in her church, took communion, said the lord's prayer, and smiled at all of her friends. and as far as her holding her tongue...she doesn't have to do that much because she knows literally nothing about my life. because she doesn't want to know. because she doesn't like cocksucking faggots.

ok, i've been in oklahoma since last friday and that was a much-needed vent...forgive me.